So to get this out of the thw way, no I don’t know how to feel about the situation.
So I go to a place near my school wear I learn the language of were I live so a lingual school, I started playing ttrpgs there and after a like 2 years I dmed Cain bt tom bloom, I got the urge after listening to crispy’s tavern (I doubt this would end up there). Before I dmed the host of the place showed us different ttrpgs one of them masks a super hero ttrpg for stuff like teen titans and etc I took Cain from there.
Today (or when I’m writing this post) i offered up masks inspired by invincible (other ttrpgs on the pick was dnd and Cain, the Cain session ran by one of my previous players). I like thw powered by the apocalypse system after finding it aka running it I can’t focus on d20 so dnd is sorta agony, I tried 2 games one is a long story and the other was a one shot which I felt board about so to respect DMs i avoid dnd at most times especially high lvl.
So we were put into groups to make it fair I got put into the dnd with only two being picked Cain and dnd, the invincible campaign I worked a bit on it thw system i couldnt run and I was willing to swap it over to Cain to run a high end campaign but nope mine didnt get picked, I felt bad about it I realized the love of CAIN is there but for mine nothing, not a one.
Now for the aita part, context I’m the oldest there I’m starting uni in a month or so roughly and I won’t be able to visit the group, I told the substitute host that I can’t do dnd my attention goes away and the game is sluggish cause the dm might take my lack of partaking and attention to heart and on the other side Cain is a horror investigation type game jujutsu kaisen with resident evil vibes, there were 7 people if I join 8 thw pace of horror is hard with 6 ik cause I did run a 6 person other Cain DMs stick to 5 as the limit hard limit,
I felt shitty about my campaign not being picked and I randomly got placed to the dnd system I’m the older person i didn’t wanna make a scene.
I talked to the substitute host about it and me being me,I just left Irish goodbye style I feel terrible but also don’t wanna ruin the games and I don’t know what to do? So am I the ahole?