u/GirlDiamond_YT

i woke up okay today. The prozac was easier to cut since I found a smaller knife that was actually clean. i was able to stay mostly calm until around the afternoon. I decided i was gonna go visit my mom but, while i was getting ready, I felt a random wave of nausea/anxiety(?). Both. i ended up crying again when I got home. It’s 8 now. I ate. Cool. And then I took my Buspirone and now I’m done eating. I’m trying to watch a show and stay relaxed. I ended up crying again lot unfortunately.

barely got any sleep last night. throughout the day though, i think i was okay, which is good. it’s night now, though. and unfortunately that’s when my anxiety spikes.

didn’t wanna make a long log today as i don’t wanna start flooding the sub but i will continue to give updates.

i think lowering the dosage was a good idea. but i don’t wanna get hopeful too soon. this is the issue. i don’t wanna get excited rn in case something bad happens. I’m still anxious about it so I’m trying to stay calm.

Today marks the 2nd week i’ve been on Prozac. i was supposed to up the dosage but after the week i had, HELL NO. I’m on a lower dosage now so.. ig we’ll see how that goes. idk what’s gonna happen and it makes me anxious. Anyway. If you’re still here reading all this, thank you.

woke up at 2am, then 5am and used the bathroom, woke up at 7am and now i’m laying in bed, hungry. i’m also trying to stay calm. I’m supposed to go see a movie with my dad later and i’m hoping it goes well. i just want it to go well.

it’s almost 9 am i’m back in the bathroom. I’m afraid to eat.

9:30. i had a couple of crackers and a bit of water. still really drained.

10, trying to watch a movie. Still trying to stay calm. I think i’m okay..

10:55, tried and struggled to to cut through the tablet so i ended up biting through it again. It’s hard to bite it though.

Just took my Buspirone. I feel okay, right now. hanging in there.

2:30, still hangin in there. A little anxious still. I’m going to see a movie at around 5. Just gotta make it until then.

it’s nearly 8. Got home from the mall from the theater. Movie was pretty good! Only thing was, i went to the theater hungry and was anxious the entire movie. But i got food so i’m trying to eat it now. It was bard for me to watch the movie but.. I’m trying to get better.

took my buspirone. It’s nearly 9 now. Trying to stay calm. I’m done eating for the night.

(It’s now the next day) i was extremely tired last night and could barely sleep again cause i afraid of waking up sick in the middle of the night so i was just anxious the whole time. (Shocker)