Do you guys get limerent over impossible people too?
I just found out the guy I've been crashing out over has a girlfriend and they're thinking of adopting a kid. I've been crying like a baby for the past hour or so. It's so weird because I am so rarely interested in anybody, it's like so hard for someone to pique my interest, but when they do, they're almost always committed to someone else. Like every single time. I'm so tired of doing this to myself.
It sucks because I know he's attracted to me too but I'm obviously not going to butt in his freaking relationship. It feels like I'm doomed to be forever in love with guys I can't have. And I didn't even know he was with somebody, I was actually hoping he wasn't and there is no indication in his page that there is somebody and he doesn't wear a ring. I don't think I'm purposely falling in love with committed men because I have an intimacy problem or something.
I'm so sick of this cycle, I can't take the pain anymore. It just hurts so much. I wish there was a cure for this thing, I know that the interest I have is like a scapegoat to my sadness or some shit. I know that it's me projecting my feelings on them and hoping to have some kind of distraction from my shitty life. But what's wrong with wanting to be wanted? And wanted by somebody I know most likely wants me back but can't do it. Why do I have to like people that are impossible to obtain? What is wrong with me?