u/GiftPuzzleheaded3392 — reddlx

Ive never been a winner. All my life ive tried to compare to my sisters, my friends, trying to make the people who have faith in me proud. But im always second best. I try so hard, but im not perfect. I have my days where Im flawed and can only stay in bed. But most days, I try so hard I forget to eat. In academics, in friendships, in my own self improvement. Im always acting like a cat who got the cream but at the end of the day the reality is I would have never made it this far by myself. I always lose by just a little bit, if I had tried harder I could've won in so many situations. But MY hardest is never enough. I honestly thing im not cut out for the things I dream to do. Im full of so much shame it could swallow me whole. I just have no more motivation for this anymore.