u/GiddoGoat

Yeah, this post isn’t for everybody.

I was raised catholic and long story short the concepts of that religion were too much for my little head to handle at the time. I went through some rough times but ultimately came out on the other side stronger and happy with who I am now.

I genuinely hadn’t thought about coming back to religion in YEARS; about 12 if I recall correctly. Then all of a sudden while listening to Drag Path the line “can you find me?” just really got me thinking. I knew subconsciously or perhaps consciously at that point I had been thinking about my past experiences with religion and stuff, and I think I just needed religion and God to come to me because I just couldn’t do it myself. I felt guilt about leaving it and I felt as though attempting to get back in it would end badly.

Drag Path saying “can you find me?” made me realize that I can let it come to me and ease my way back and feel my way around so I don’t spiral.

I know this band is about more than God but there are certainly undertones of Tyler’s beliefs and his lyrics are very inspiring and helpful and just overall amazing.

Hello everyone.

I am currently enrolled in a computer science program for my associates at a community college, mainly because my state is allowing me to do it for free (yay!). However, as of late I have been wandering, so to speak, toward other paths, like automotive technology (big passion/hobby of mine but I don't really see myself doing it for a living), and physics (mainly today's hot topics, like dark matter/energy and quantum physics, as well as astronomy). I do enjoy computer science, but the way the field is heading has gotten me quite discouraged about what my role would be and what I would perceive my identity to be in the grand scheme of things.

Enter: my schools astronomy course. Great professor, great curriculum. Really passionate about the schoolwork involved in that class and I never truly felt it to be a burden getting up in the morning to go spend time in the classroom.

Additionally, my mind is always thinking more of hypothetical extremes, like the origins of the universe, and what the unknowns are of today's sciences, not, for instance, how to maximize a program for profit and keep the man off my back.

Anyway, that's my little predicament at the moment. I'd love to hear about those of you who have chosen to take the physics/astronomy route, as well as any of you who feel you can contribute to me finding my way out of this maze we call figuring out how you want to spend the rest of your life.

Thank you!

Hello everyone, I hope you're having a fine evening/day.

I don't even know where to begin...

When I was a child I was raised Catholic until I began to fear death so strongly that I was terrified of simple things that most people wouldn't think about. I began to contemplate the meaning of life, what happens after death, what it means to be alive, etc. My parents put me in therapy and the overall conclusion was that going to church and Sunday school and hearing about heaven and hell and what you should/shouldn't do was too much for my little brain to comprehend at the time, as well as various other experiences that a child probably isn't meant to go through. My parents stopped practicing altogether. We have pretty much lived agnostically since then, but lately for whatever reason I have been thinking about my experience with religion and how it affected me and how that experience for better or for worse is at least a little responsible for the person I am today, as are all experiences I've ever had.

I'm going to be honest, I don't know why I am all of a sudden finding an interest in these beliefs again. I had all but forgotten almost everything religious I had done as a child. I was less than or around 10 years old when I stopped practicing, and growing up I remember finding religious beliefs almost amusing (I was immature and thought religion to be silly), but now I am 21 and for some reason I just feel lightly drawn back to it, but enough to really get stuck on why I am feeling this way. It's not that I'm resisting myself, it's just that I genuinely don't know why this is occurring. There aren't many resources for me to consult, and I won't even attempt to do internet research out of fear that I will be led falsely one way or another because of how polarized the world has become, especially about beliefs such as these.

Anyway, to get to the point, if any if you have ever had this experience or currently are, why is this happening to me? Should I simply feel things out and do some little things here and there that I can remember from my upbringing? Should I go to church? I don't currently feel comfortable talking to my family about these feelings, not because they would be offended, but because I don't want to put ideas in their head that I am coming back to religion.

I guess I'm confused.

Any advice/stories/experiences are greatly appreciated.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. Have a great day/night.