My meds won’t refill until Monday and I’m feeling scared
I’ve been taking Trazadone (200mg) for about 2-3 years now and it’s been the one of the only meds that has actually been effective in helping me sleep, it literally knocks me out and keeps me asleep most of the time.
Last Friday, I requested a refill since I was running low. By Wednesday night I ran out and stayed up all night. All day Thursday, I went through a roller coaster of emotions. I had far too much energy and felt dreadful all day, I had urges to self-harm and would switch from dancing in my room to crying in bed. My mom had 150mg of Trazadone left over from when she was prescribed it a year ago so she let me use that to sleep Thursday night. I’ve been up since Friday morning. I’ve been wide awake and I don’t feel tired in the slightest.
I come home late from work and I drive quite a distance (40 minute drive both ways) and I’m afraid that If I don’t sleep tonight then I’ll do something dumb and end up hurting myself Sunday. I’m also just nervous in general for the work day today since I know for a fact that I WILL have some sort of anxiety attack at some point. I don’t know how to explain, I feel like shit and my dumb brain isn’t working. My body aches and hurts and I just needed to vent.
I called the pharmacy yesterday to ask again and I got a response from a robot saying that my meds MIGHT be available Monday so it’s not even guaranteed. I’m frustrated