Need some help for you all
I am posting this on behalf of u/Agitated\_Shallot9034
I’m an Indian student pursuing MBBS in Nepal, and honestly, I don’t think I ever wanted this life for myself.
Before coming here, I spent almost 8 years mostly at home with very little social interaction, so I developed a lot of fear and anxiety around people and conflicts. My biggest problem is that I get extremely affected if someone is angry with me, if there’s any misunderstanding, argument, or even a small conflict. I struggle to stand up for myself because I’m always scared the other person will get upset or hate me. I’m very emotional, sensitive, and I overthink everything.
My roommate is very toxic and often tries to insult me or make me feel small. The worst part is that her words affect me deeply. Even after trying so hard, I still can’t stop caring about what people say or think about me. I keep asking myself how to stop getting mentally affected by people.
The truth is, I never really wanted to do MBBS. I tried many times to avoid medical studies and wanted to pursue some other course near my home, but my father forced me into this. Now I feel trapped because around 60 lakh rupees have already been spent, so leaving the course doesn’t even feel like an option anymore.
At this point, I just want to know: how do I become mentally strong? How do I stop getting hurt so easily? How do I stop overthinking every interaction and become emotionally stronger in a toxic environment?
If anyone has gone through something similar, please share advice. I really need it.