I think I need to quit drinking but I’m scared to do it. I grew up binge drinking at parties in high school and would black out all the time. I was so socially anxious and drinking was my escape because it made me feel fun and social.
Now at 26 years old, I black out really easily. I constantly look for an excuse to have drinks. When my friends ask to hang out I only ever want to hit the wine bar or go for patio drinks. It feels like the only option for socializing and the thought of doing it makes me really excited. I don’t drink alone at home, but when it comes to being with other people I always push towards having drinks.. It’s come to a point where I’ll have 3-4 drinks at dinner with friends and it happens several times a week.
PS. I tried going sober before but have always found a reason to drink again eventually (events, celebrations, etc).
I guess I’ve always normalized my drinking because I’ve assumed I am in control of it. But I’m slowly realizing I’m not. Can anyone else relate?