u/FunnyPace2010

So, it’s been almost three months since I started university, and on the very first day, I saw this tall girl with the prettiest eyes ( guys she ain't a niqabi ) I had ever seen. Being a confident guy, I went up to her and straight up told her that she was my type, and if she was interested, we could talk every day and see where things go. So, we started talking, and after just two days, she started liking me too.

We went on our first date, and she didn’t cover her face that day, even though she usually does in university. Honestly, at first, I didn’t think she was very pretty, just normal. But as time went by, I got to know more and more about her. She even introduced me to her elder sister, and her sister liked me too, but that’s not why I’m writing this.

It’s been almost three months now, and I’m in love with this woman. She’s like my oxygen tank. Coming from a very dysfunctional family, receiving this much love and care just overwhelms me.

Now listen, this might be very normal for most of you guys, but you know how hot it is in Lahore these days. I was sweating like crazy while we were sitting outside on a bench, and she just started wiping the sweat off my face with her dupatta. I don’t know how to explain it, but I genuinely felt like crying.

She tells me how much she loves me. She tells me how much she cares about me. And honestly, all my life, my own mother never even took care of me the way she does. I always find myself on the verge of tears whenever I’m with her.

I’m so in love with her. She makes me feel everything I have never felt before. She always chooses me over anyone else, and she takes care of me like a child. I’m literally a 21-year-old grown adult, and she’s two years younger than me.

She makes me want to dedicate poetry, songs, and poems to her; everything. And now, I truly believe she is the most beautiful woman, hell, the last beautiful woman on Earth.

I don’t have to ask her to love me. I don’t have to ask her not to “khi khi khi” with other boys. I don’t have to ask her to choose me. She just does everything on her own and constantly tells me how much she loves me.

Oh God, I don’t know what to do with myself.

DISCLAIMER : many people are thinking that she's a niqabi but she's not she just used to wear a mask that time

Im 21M and i recently joined a university. The reason I started this late is because I had to work jobs to support myself due to my lower middle-class background. I spent years trying to earn money, but honestly, none of those jobs really worked out for me, and now I feel like I’m left with nothing. I don’t even know what I should do anymore to earn.

Now that I’m in university, I see so many students who are younger than me and have privileges I either never had or had to work hard for. They all seem to have goals, hobbies, interests, and a clear direction in life, while I feel completely lost. I’m not earning anything right now, I don’t really have hobbies or interests, and even if I did, I probably wouldn’t be able to afford them.

I’ve been trying to find a part-time job alongside university just to manage my daily expenses, but no luck so far. My father gives me this disappointed look whenever I have to ask him for money, and it honestly makes me feel worse.

I guess what I’m really asking is: is it actually normal to not have life figured out in your 20s? Because seeing everyone around me moving forward makes me feel like I’m already left behind.