u/FunctionUseful9745

I wanna start this post by coming out to y'all—i've been a lesbian since i gained consciousness in the womb. I used to draw naked women in fishnet hoses, big lips and heels—bush, nipples and shit.. when I was what? Three years old? That one Pussycat Dolls Buttons music video I watched when I was (approximately) 5 years old amplified my monstrosity. All that before I got conditioned by Islam and the Egyptian society to be the good Muslim kid and spent half of my teenhood with internalized homophobia before I posted in this subreddit four years ago. Now I'm 20 years old, proudly and loudly lesbian. I no longer believe in Islam, no longer believe is sex inside wedlock—that the degree of ethical sex is consent, not papers. So now that I accept myself as a lesbian.. now what? Because if there are any queer codes within the Egyptian society, I wouldn't be able to catch them because my Arabic sucks and I'm socially awkward; I spent my whole childhood, teenhood and probably still now.. sheltered, I didn't socialize much to gain language and social cues. I'm an internet kid, still am. That's the problem. And now I'm seeking a relationship, or a hookup.. anything.. with a woman. How do I do that shit without being caught?