I’m 32/f originally from South America. I’ve lived in Germany for most of my life but with a lot of trouble. I was in an abusive marriage, then worked and finally applied for German passport. Then my parent died back home, and I became quite traumatized and had some mental health issues, that left me unemployed for about 1,5 years.
That stopped my application for passport. Until this year back in January I found finally a new job. Believe it or not, I had been applying all that year with out much luck.
It is definitely not my dream job, not in my area that I worked for years. Simply customer service, and I ended up there out of need. But the workplace has been truly toxic and hostile, that has broken what was left of me, I got bullied pretty hard since the beginning and when I finally reported it, I got fired.
And I’m truly tired from Germany. Even though if I stay, start over again and find any other job, I could maybe the passport in another year, or two.
I want to leave and go somewhere completely opposite, like a cheaper -than my own- South American country or Thailand, Vietnam.
I’ve also looked into Portugal, since they offer a visa with this amount of passive income and it’d still be Europe. Or Georgia, seems like a nice country even though I bet it has its problems.
I’m quite lost and don’t know where to go. I live in a big city here in Germany and my rent is 1,3k. Unemployed it will eat up quite a lot of my income. So while I do have to live, I think staying here is a mistake. I am so deeply unhappy and while I am still working until a few more months, the bullying from my boss has gotten so bad and personal, that I lay at bed at night and think of ending my life.
Whenever I tell anyone, they tell me I’m stupid for leaving Germany. For them, I am so lucky to be here and so close to stay with the passport. But I’ve never been happy here, my life has been always so much trouble and I want to live somewhere cheap enough to allow to live off my passive income in peace.
I’m quite introverted, isolate myself a lot and probably autism. I don’t know. So I would like somewhere that is cheap but still somewhat safe. Asia attracts me a lot because I feel my life there would be easier with my introverted personality.
I am very lost… Any advice or input is truly welcomed