I'm considering to leave loass. can someone talk some sense into me?
hi, i know i can sound really limiting right now but im not at the best mindspace rn😭 ive considered leaving loass for good but i need some sense knocked into me.
like you're telling me that people have revised DEATHS, being cured from cancers, and whatnot but tell me WHY am i struggling to manifest academics so much?
here's some background context: ok yes i havent studied a lot this academic year... or the past 2. yesyes i know that's on me, ive had really bad mental health/and other issues going on for me, and its been feeling impossible to actually get myself to study. plus im going through the toughest phase of a student in this country: national level competitive exams. i suck ass clearly. but i really didnt want to take a drop year because i cant stay with my family for any longer.
ive been affirming for a certain percentage for my graduation exam, and i tried assuming all along. even though i didnt attempt much, even though it went "bad", i told myself that the circumstances didn't matter. ive been really anxious about it. a lot of exams happened in the mean time and NONE went my way. matter of fact id score lower than id have expected to even if I didn't believe in loass. and i know im "smart", so it was a little shocking.
but i held on and persisted. sure i wavered sometimes but id get my ass back on track soon. i realized i was too attached, so i tried detaching. i kept on affirming so that it'd stick with my subconscious.
but the results came back today and it was bad. matter of fact, the paper in which i thought i was already good at, also went lower than expected. im starting to really lose my belief in this, and i don't know if i should because idk.
can anyone help me out if they can and help me understand what i have done wrong? LIKE i know i can still revise my grade but with the way things have been playing out, it's going to take a LOT for me to assume that because my country doesn't really do this + im exhausted myself today (i know circumstances don't matter and stuff but like yea)
i don't care about changing this particular grade anymore, but im losing faith that things wouldn't get any better for me here on.