u/FunAnt6899

To my distant lover, I resent how effortlessly you make others’ access to you seem, as if they don’t have to earn your attention. Long days melt into a haze of loneliness when I desperately want you to need me in return—longing for a love so quiet and small that it often goes unnoticed, easily overlooked as you seek affection elsewhere. A love that is loud and intense feels like an unfulfilling plea, because I’m afraid to ask for more, fearing I might lose what little you offer. This only widens the gap between us. The pain of loving from afar is hard to bear in a life where I only desire your gentle hugs and the soothing sound of your voice to calm my restless heart. When I give you space, my heart pounds with worry, fearing you’ll go days without reaching out or needing me. To my distant lover, I hate how you push me away precisely when I need you most—when I crave your presence, reassurance, and love.

I became who you needed not who I was
Bit by bit
I sanded the edges until it was smooth enough to fit into your comfort
You called it growth
I called it I called it disappearance
but the worst part you left anyways and I didn’t even know who I was without you

i didn't fall in love with you
because i was looking for someone. i didn't fall in love with you because i felt too alone on my own. i didn't fall in love with you because i needed a relationship to be happy.
i fell in love with you because you make me feel needed. i fell in love with you because when i give you my love you give me yours in return. i fell in love with you
because you radiate a very special energy.
i fell in love with you because you are you.

Love is everything about you - your eyes, your voice, your smile, your presence, your skin, your face, your personality, your principles, your touch, your hugs, your kisses, your flaws, your imperfections, and your complements. To me, you are love.

If you were to ask me how you make me feel, I'd say happy. But if you were to ask me on a deeper level of my emotions, I'd say that you make me feel like the little boy I once was - full of laughter, joy, and eager to begin each day. I hadn't seen that boy for quite some time, but now that you're here, I never want him to leave. With you here, I will love you with the pure, open heart of that little boy - innocent and full of light, a love without intent, a love that simply is.

Loving you is like a summer’s blaze—
No fire in sight, yet I burn for days.
A silent scorch beneath my skin,
No way to lose, no way to win.

You do not see, you do not feel,
Yet all I want is something real.
Each breath I take, a gasp for air,
In a world where you’re not there.

This longing twists, it pulls, it binds,
It echoes deep through heart and mind.
A tethered ache I cannot shake,
A hunger I can’t seem to break.

When love goes one way, not returned,
It feels like bridges all have burned.
A weight that sinks beneath the chest,
Where loneliness has made its nest.

You never meant to do me wrong,
But silence sings a bitter song.
And hope, once bright, now flickers low,
A candle starved by winds that blow.

Still here I stand, though torn apart—
A tender, broken, beating heart.
For loving you and not being loved
Is pain the stars have never dreamed of.