I am afraid I will basically not be able to walk really. Or stand. Or drive. Or any of that. If it gets much worse. My bad days are far more frequent than my.. less bad days now. I don’t know what to do. I feel like it’s all falling apart on me now. My life. I don’t think things will be at all okay for me in a tolerable way, for much longer.
Started to feel dizzy in my backyard. Started to go down/stumble forward looking to grab onto something. Ended up crashing through a whole bunch of wrought iron metal chairs that went flying all over the place and flipping upside down and crashing the patio table that went flying into the side of the house and ripped my knee open bad on a nasty old outdoor metal chair and had to go get a tetanus shot. I’m pretty heavy too so like, not feeling great about that as I feel my weight contributed to the spectacular grandeur of the scale of the crash. Looked like a grizzly bear came charging through or something.
So that’s how my day went. Very aggravating. Also didn’t receive a whole lot of warmth or sympathy for it honestly. Kind of got a sort of ‘ugh one thing after another with you and all your health stuff’ kinda vibe response mixed with some condescending tone of ‘maybe you shouldn’t be left alone anymore!’ and then was just kind of expected to limp around on my busted knee doing shit without like a “hey you need a hand with that? Sit down I can get that.” Idk whatever that’s people but just kind of rude I thought.
Anyways, all’s well that ends well I guess at least I don’t need to worry about a tetanus booster for another 10 years and I gotta sweet antibiotic ointment for my knee out of the deal.