I (24F) am self diagnosed autistic. My therapist is so supportive and validating(she specializes in autism). I'm very fortunate to also have supportive family, partner, and friends. They all can see it, they believe me.
But sometimes I get so frustrated trying to find the balance with literally everything. Sometimes it's very obvious I'm autistic other times I feel like I am "normal enough" to still HAVE to do all the adult things like everyone else.
I do it EVEN THOUGH I feel constantly burnt out with a part time job, have physical health struggles(POTS)(ED), and mental health struggles(PMDD, ADHD, Anxiety). Also why do I have a Pokémon card collection of disorders? So fun.
I can't manage the complexity and expectations at work. I feel like I just can't do it. Or am I faking my symptoms and using it as an excuse? I dread that theory. I always do my best because that's the kindest thing you can do for yourself. But it is very hard to accept that in moments of high emotion(over little things too).
I know there are statistics saying a LOT of autistic adults don't work or work part-time jobs. I can completely understand that spectrum! But where do I land?
I've been concerned about regression in the past few years. It seems my tolerance to life and the requirements to be a "functioning adult" have lowered. I can't handle as much and it's so confusing and frustrating.
Am I overworking my brain at work or should I be pushing myself and enduring the burnout?
I'm trying to get a handle on my POTS(diagnosed two weeks ago) and the lifestyle changes it requires. Working with a Nutritionist is also overwhelming. So much change, so much habit building. It's just a lot at once.... And then I'm trying to manage a job that is very demanding.
If you read all this thank you! I wanna hear any and all opinions. What do I do about working? How could I support myself? Am I faking?