I stopped my mom from divorcing my father earlier than she did
I was around 5 when it happened. My mother and father were slowly falling out of love when my father turned to drugs and began to abuse my mother behind closed doors. My older brother had a general idea of what was happening since he was around 13 when it was going on, my sister was 6 and we were mostly shielded from the fights.
I knew they argued, I'd just go play with my toys and ignore it for the most part. Then one night my mom kicked my father out and I didn't know why, I remember crying and telling my mom I hated her for kicking him out. She saw how my sister and I reacted when she got rid of him and they ended up back together but it only got worse. I watched it get worse over the years as he got bolder, knowing she wouldn't leave him. We eventually separated from him by a court order and my siblings and I lived with a relative when I was 11. My mom wasn't allowed to see us for a bit, my father would threaten her everytime she tried. I live with her now, im 19 and she's got an amazing boyfriend who treats her better than anyone else could ever imagine.
I can't help but wonder if we hadn't of been so cruel to her when she kicked him out that maybe she wouldn't have suffered for so much time. I feel terrible about it everyday, thinking about how I told my poor abused mother that I hated her just for protecting herself and us. I wish I could go back and shake my little shoulders so I could snap out of it. It kills me knowing maybe it could've turned out different.