u/Freaktomeat

He already asked if I was transgender and I denied it successfully (I think) but clearly I’m on thin ice here. The only explanation for me offering him T as a cis guy is if I took T to improve my gym performance and bruhh honestly having someone think that about me is almost as bad as them knowing I’m transgender. Just embarrassing. I’m proud of the progress I have made in the gym naturally. I don’t think his family is supportive either (they are conservative Chinese) so even if I did offer, there’s a good chance he’d shoot me down. I think he has potential honestly he just needs to hop on T and fix his fembrain. We go to community college together but I’m graduating at the end of this year so maybe it wouldn’t matter.

For me it’s my carabiner. The way poons on ftmpassing talk about not being willing to give up long hair or piercings or makeup or… etc. is how I feel about my carabiner. It is clocky but I lose my keys if I don’t use one. I legit tried not using it for one day and immediately lost my keys. Another poonerific style choice is my school bag. It’s a green canvas side bag with a stitched leather moose on it. Not too bad but I have some pins on it and a tail keychain. I could probably clock someone just from that bag. It’s bad. Might switch it up when I graduate from community college and head to university.

If I ceased taking testosterone, my body would not revert to a female’s. I would just turn into a man with brittle bones. I’m post hysterectomy and obviously I understand how the surgery works but I thought recently about what would happen if I stopped T (I have no intentions to) and I guess just connected the dots. It makes me happy to know that I am safe from that now. My body will not betray me. I will be a man forever. I’m getting metoidioplasty this fall. I will consider my form fully male once I have this surgery. I would be content to die in that form, knowing my body would be preserved as male forever. This pleases me. I’m excited for the future.