My intense experience with Babalon
I practice chaos magic, and someone I met started telling me about Thelema and its deities, and its ritual uses, like vibrating their names... and since I'm the kind of guy who tends to experiment, I had the audacity to start vibrating names: IAO, NUIT, HADIT... with interesting results. Already feeling confident, it so happened that on the night of the blood lunar eclipse that had just passed, I vibrated BABALON intensely. I didn't experience anything at that moment; I went to sleep, and as soon as I fell asleep, I experienced a strong hypnagogic state. I felt completely paralyzed, but lucid. I was in my room, and at the same time, I had the sensation of being in an open, dark space... and I felt a strong feminine presence around me. It's the first time I've experienced such intense pressure, and something started happening that still baffles me. I literally felt about a hundred metallic spheres the size of baseballs rolling around me. They completely surrounded me, and then I felt the spheres beneath my back, moving toward my spine, and there I managed to stammer YEHESHUAH and immediately came out. I opened my eyes and everything in my room was silent. I got up and performed a banishing ritual and felt calm. Where I live, my aunt sleeps in the next room, and as soon as I finished the banishing ritual and lay down again, I heard a loud noise and my aunt calling for help. She had fallen out of bed and told me she was having a nightmare, and that she felt a force push her... I told her it was just a nightmare so as not to frighten her with my practices. Please excuse any grammatical errors; English is not my native language...