I think I purposefully threw myself back into AGP for some reason? Confused as to why.
For context after dealing with a professional for a little while I thought I finally had my head screwed on straight. I was planning on obtaining from porn but couldn't and ended up watching porn involving regular women and regular sex while trying to imagine myself as someone other than the woman in question. In general I did fairly well at this and after a few days of that and making some general life improvements I felt like I was beginning to identify properly with my male side and the delusions of being a woman or needing to make myself into one had subsided. For some reason I got very tired of this state of affairs after a while and I purposefully looked at triggering content and forced myself to engage in AGP thoughts until I was back in that headspace and now I'm back in it again and I am trying to figure out why I did this to myself.