Please help
Hello. I am currently suffering through an exhausting time in my life right now. I feel miserable almost everyday, Im questioning my faith everyday and I just don't know what to do anymore. Someone very close to me has died and i wasn't even given comfort of saying goodbye to them. I have been cut off from my extended family due to drama concerning one of my main family members too. I keep asking God for signs but he's not giving me any. Im a christian but im afraid to tell my family since one of them has suffered due to certain events concerning religion and i don't know how they will respond, and i dont feel like i can talk about it with them. I dont understand why God is letting me suffer so much, i just want to feel genuinely happy again but ever since i've became fully christian i've been feeling very often at times, miserable. Please offer advice and help if you can.