Nobody is worth you staying sick. They are not worth it. You are worth doing the work and raising your frequency. If you have any health condition, and you’re focusing on brain and heart coherence then you’re close to healing. Every single day remember this. Whatever our problems are, in the 3d they are not worth us staying sick. Stay focused on the testimonials. Remember they got worse before they got better. Keep reprogramming!
I know I shouldn’t label my marriage as toxic even, but it’s not great. My husband constantly is in a bad mood. He then blames me. Then baits me until I react so he can then punish me with the silent treatment. Then he’s happier cause I’m in the same state or worse state then he is. Even though I know to not let him get to me it’s still annoying.
I know a lot of people deal with when their partner is in a bad mood they like to start a fight to get them in that state with them. I’m tired of having him being mad at me and then it messes up my inner state. I have always been a stay at home mom so I can’t just leave him.
I am going to focus on detaching and elevating my state as much as possible. I don’t even want to have any anger towards him or feel like I should retaliate for how he acts. My husband turned 40 and told me he’s going through depression, so clearly I’m so rude to him if I’m not also depressed with him. It’s like a personal offense if he sees me happy and he’s not.
I might even spend my time upstairs away from him to protect my energy, however I don’t want him changing my life like that. I get I need to shift my focus, but my husband gets his switch flipped and there’s no reasoning until he decides he’s now fine and acts like nothing happened.
Trust me if I went back in time the first time he got mad and shut down and was being passive aggressive I would have just left him in a second. Nobody deserves to have to walk on eggshells. I’m not afraid of him I’m just tired of being used as an emotional punishing bag. It’s hard to predict a future when my husband behavior has never changed and seems to be getting worse. Do I just dream of being rich and alone? I definitely just want inner peace no matter how he is, but I’ve tried not for years.