Hello, I don't really know where to start as I'm just looking for some general advice.
I was officially diagnosed (45/m) with ADHD by Psychiatry UK around a month ago so still a big wait for medication. But I have known I've had ADHD for around 5 years.
At first things got easier and I was kinder to myself but most recently I am struggling to cope and find myself in tears most days.
Probably a lot of stuff mounting up, I've got big debts from compulsive spending that I've been trying to pay off and juggle for so long but recently went into a DMP which has actually taken a little of the load off. But due to my ADHD I've not been able to hold down a job so even when things are going well I feel I'm walking on eggshells. I work in sales at the moment as thought that would suit me with the fast paced environment but in reality its just 99% being rejected and not thinking I'm good enough.
Then in my personal life I'm a people pleaser but I fight with myself as I know some peoples opinions I care about I shouldn't. So I spend all night obsessing about what people think of me or what I should have done different.
I'm blessed with a family that love me which I should be more grateful that I show but even that makes me feel less than because really I'm worrying about nonsense.
I don't know how much of the above is linked to ADHD but I'm really unsure where to turn for help. I'd love some specialist counselling but with the job precarious and the debt management plan I'm not sure I can afford it.