u/ForwardAct6619

Kinfirming Dylan, Nam-gyu, AND wind archer. I'm on a roll guys!!! Wow!! Please help me there are too many now my brain wont be able to keep track and I hate keeping notes </3 currently almost done finishing up new pronouns cc pages for them because I like to do that before I post

>!I just wanna go home. My only safespace and all I think of as home when I regress is long gone and has been for nearly 4-6 years maybe?? When I'm little I think about it so much more and then I get upset and frustrated because I cant go home everyone is gone D: sorry for the sadness I just am sad right now!<

I decided that I would make my kins and sourcemates in tomadochi life so I can see my kins and my sourcemates interact >o< so far im still in tutorial mode though, so I've only made my brother </3 -⚔️☁️

Today is mothers day and my friend raised me practically so I consider her my mama and when I think of the word mama she is my first thought so I drew her something and she REALLY REALLY LIKED IT!! >o< She has it as her pfp AND she told me she feels maternal over me!! Im so happy!!

I was listening to songs and remembered my first time fighting a demon + spending time with Yui. First memory is not a fun memory, but it's still something. Better than nothing. Atleast there was a good one too.

>!Yui was alive during the actual fight, I think. I remember the fight lasted a long long time, and by the time it was done my bones ached and my muscles trembled. I think my brain still thought I could save him, but I was too exhausted to manage the effort. I felt bad.!<

The good memory next!! I remember watching Yui cook sometimes. He was harsh, but he seemed calmer when he did work like that. It was nice to see him relaxed. It made me happy.

i just wanted to ramble -⚔️☁️

Some part of my brain is screaming at me that sitting still and doing nothing even for a few minutes is wrong. I should be doing something, but there is nothing to be done so sadly I have to fight with my brain </3

It's like I practically have to force my brain to consider itself a human being worthy of rest (A bit exaggerated, but that's how it feels kind of?). It's not like I do nothing. I practically am doing a job all day, just not the kind I'm used to.

Shifting is torture (exaggerated) -❤️⚔️

I thinkk I regress a little when I shift as Mizin?? And its very scary, my brain is both telling itself very dehumanizing things but also I just want my mama and papa even if I never met them in source I dunno I just wish I was a normal kid in my source. It makes me sad. I like movies here, atleast. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer is silly -🩷🖤

>!I really, really dislike medical situations. Not because I'm genuinely scared, moreso because it makes me uneasy? Especially being put under anesthetic for surgeries. That makes me very uneasy. That fear appears more when I'm shifted as certain kins (such as currently Tecchou). It feels like I'm surrending my body and trust to someone I don't know. Reminds me of my source a bit in a way that makes my skin crawl. I dislike it. I still need more dental work which I am not excited for. -❤️⚔️!<

Suhyun/Luka, Hyuna, and Sua kid - Very firey spirit. Was nice to me, ruffled my hair. I like my head being pet. The oldest. I consider him a friend

Suka/Luka and Sua kid - Very quiet, but she was scared very easily aswell. I found it funny to sneak up on her. I consider her a friend.

Hyul/Hyuna and Till kid - He was very rowdy, but still knew his limits. Respectable.

Luila/Luka, Till, and Sua kid - I am indifferent, leaning towards dislike on her. She asks lots of questions. She can be quiet, though, so that is a good trait I guess.

Till - Kind, though I don't have many memories of him. He was one of Luila's providers. I respect him. He also has a cool bike and I'm jealous.

Mizi and Ivan - Both of them I feel the same towards. I did not know them, so I am indifferent. All I am aware of now is that they were my providers so I will include them here.

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>!It feels weird now knowing the details of my source. In my source I was made with the DNA of two people who I guess would be considered my parents? I never met them. Most of my life was in the replica hall looking at props from the museum. It feels weird even considering myself a human, even though I know I was still a human in source. I dunno. I get to just be a normal kid in this life, but my past still haunts me.!<

On the note of the museum though, I think the clothes were really pretty. Sua's dress was pretty. -🩷🖤