I don’t care about my degree and I don’t know what to do
So for context I’m turning 20 in 2 weeks and am a first year studying a BSc in Physics. I actually am retaking first year because of personal issues I had in the second semester of last year and I did want to come back but now I’m second guessing my decision and feeling guilty about it. I genuinely do not care about the stuff I’m learning about but I feel like I can’t leave because of the amount of money I’ve wasted these two years with student loans and uni fees etc. My first exam of the spring semester is tomorrow and I am definitely not prepared for it (I can retake this exam this isn’t why I feel like this) but whilst I’ve been revising for it I’ve come to the conclusion that none of the content interests me in the slightest. Ik having a physics degree would be beneficial for getting a good job and that’s part of the reason I came back to it but I’m finding it hard to be motivated to get a degree I don’t like just to get a job that I most likely won’t like either. Idk if I’m just being lazy or whining and I’m sure other people don’t like their degrees but idk what to do. I like science but I don’t know if I actually like physics and this feeling will pass or I just want to like it to prove something or like the idea of it.
I feel like all of my friends are happy with where they are and what they’re doing and I just don’t feel like that. I don’t want to be left behind. I have accommodation for next year which I’m really excited about as I’m currently living at home and commuting to uni which isn’t ideal but the thought of studying the same stuff next year is not nice lol. I just want to study something I’m passionate about and be happy doing it but that’s seeming less and less likely nowadays so idk what to do.
Anyway sorry for the rant I just need some unbiased from people who aren’t my parents. Thank youuuu