I hate myself with a burning passion no matter how much people around me pretend to like me
I am given amazing opportunities, have such a good education and career path set out for me, yet at the end of the day I feel like everyone would be better off without me. I cant stop thinking about how people must secretly hate me as much as I hate myself, or just realize that there something "off" about me.
Despite the love and support I get I cant be convinced. I dont deserve this life, I deserve to be punished. I'm a horrible, selfish, evil person but I just cant explain why. Everyone tells me i've done nothing wrong but I constantly carry this guilt that comes from nothing but everything.
When i'm alone after a large social gathering is the worst. Why would people talk to me? Why would I talk to anyone? I regret everything.
I hate myself.