u/Forest_Goblin_

I am obsessive about calculating how much energy I have to do tasks and limiting the pain it will cause me. I spend hours and hours every day going over in my head the most efficient ways to do simple daily tasks in a way that will cause the least amount of pain and fatigue, right down to the most insignificant detail. It causes me immense stress when I feel like I haven't done tasks "efficiently enough" and I feel guilty. Doing housework/cleaning it the worst trigger for the thoughts. When you're chronically ill, obviously it is necessary to plan ahead to a certain extent as to not over-exert ourselves and cause flair ups, but mine has reached a point where it's gone beyond what's necessary. Like I'm literally obsessing over my every movement. Has anyone else dealt with this? I feel so alone and like I'm going crazy. This first started when I got diagnosed in 2022 and it's been going downhill since. I just want to move my body and DO shit without thinking it to death first.

I am obsessive about calculating how much energy I have to do tasks and limiting the pain it will cause me. I spend hours every day going over in my head the most efficient ways to do simple daily tasks in a way that will cause the least amount of pain and fatigue. It causes me immense stress when I feel like I haven't done tasks "efficiently enough". When you're chronically ill, obviously it is necessary to plan ahead to a certain extent as to not over-exert ourselves and cause flair ups, but mine has reached a point where it's gone beyond what's necessary. Like I'm literally obsessing over my every movement. Has anyone else dealt with this? I feel so alone and like I'm going crazy. This first started when I got diagnosed in 2022 and it's been going downhill since. I just want to move my body and DO shit without thinking it to death first.