u/Foreign_One_1221

I'm embarrassed at how I look back into these situations. I get manipulated even when I know the consequences. It's like they hook me with their rough hands. My only cope is too weak to stay as one. Thus, how will I manage myself anymore? He's just a character from a media that can be drawn in ways I can get triggered from. Without this coping mechanism working, I can't eat or I'll have nausea, I can't focus on my day anymore, and I can't sleep or relax. It worries me every day if he'll be portrayed in a certain way that causes me to lose control because it has already happened twice.