Honestly, I really disliked my freshman year. My GPA's set to be pretty mediocre, and I do feel very discouraged seeing everyone around me do better. I don't feel like I made a lot of friends and even with the one I've made I don't really have a strong connection with them. As for clubs, those were okay for the most part I guess but I felt like a loner in most of them. I was also really drained and tired most of the time, and I didn't really have much motivation, especially towards the end.
I'm really scared to go back for sophomore year. I really dislike my schedule and I'm terrified for CS439, especially with the workload. There's also a friend situation that I have that'll definitely carry on to that class, and I'm not looking forward to that either plus I have to start looking into recruitment, which just makes everything feel worse. I know I have all of summer to relax, but I can't stop thinking about it and I'm really scared. I lowk just want to transfer or drop out and not have to deal with any of the stress.
There's also a part of me that wants to try again with sophomore year though. Any advice for what I should do? I really do want to make friends and put myself out there while also getting good grades, but I just can't for some reason.