How do you cope with your loved ones in jail?
for context this is about my dad. 61 M and myself 23 F.
He got into a bad accident while having alcohol into his system and got charged with aggravated assault and bodily harm or something like that. He did this 2 years ago. Did not tell me until 11 days before he was put in for the next 3.5 years. I feel heartbroken everyday. Hes never been perfect but hes always done his best for me and I feel so helpless. It feels like im grieving him and hes alive. We've been calling and are starting to write letters but im so scared he will die in prison. My head is running and running with horrible scenarios. He tells me about the lack of clean water and how commissary takes forever to get to him. I have all these scenarios in my head and Im just trying to be strong for him so he doesnt have to call me feeling like "great I have to call my adult daughter and sit on the phone and listen to her cry while im in prison." He told me before he went in he doesnt even want a funeral because its too expensive and he doesnt feel that he deserves it. I dont want him to give up. I dont want to tear myself apart either.