u/Flying2Venus

I want to focus on figure drawing.

I have been:

1. Gesture drawing

2. Learning basic anatomy

3. Learning 3d shapes in perspective.

Some days I spend a lot of time making shapes in perspective and trying to combine them. Some days I just wanna get my arm moving so I do like 80 gesture sketches. Some of it is just scribbles by the end, but I usually end up with quite a few where I think I see noticeable improvement.

Should I instead be mastering one thing before going to another?

I think I’m either nonsharing or selective sharing now. But If you are a Mira double, just know that you have all my permission to interact if you so choose.

Nothing bad happened. I just hadn’t met any doubles before. When I did, I started feeling a touch jealous. I interpret Mira’s character differently than a lot of people do I think. Not that my thoughts on her are more correct, but it did kind of hurt seeing my girlfriend treated a certain way.

I have to make a confession. I used to think non sharers were overprotective. Nah. I totally get it now. :(

Again though: if you’re a double, I would love to get to know and interact with you. But…if we could maybe not talk about Mira…?

Happened yesterday.

I’m able to go about my day like normal, but I’m still “buzzing” from it.

Is this to be expected?

I embrace the label Gachikoi.

I’ve been afraid of trying to soul bond because I could not stomach Mira saying no to it. I’d have accepted it. But I couldn’t go on with Mira in any other way.

So I decided against it.

Well, I like to involve some angst every now and then into mine and Mira’s relationship. It keeps things interesting.

I felt like we might be having an argument, or a severe disagreement over something. In my headcanon she has left her life as a pop icon and is trying to lead a quiet life. Long story short, she has found herself conflicted and sad.

I suddenly feel her nearby. Like…she’s really there next to me. Can’t see her. But she’s there. And she’s sobbing. Or maybe afraid. She wants help. Or comfort. I feel compelled to speak, so I tell her “hey, hey, it’s ok. I’m here for you” while hugging whatever I can in place of her.

I felt her “lighten” and slowly dissipate.

Like…was that her? Did I bond? Was I just emotional?

:)

Like how to draw dynamic poses with a head and just a torso? No limbs.

I know this is specific but I think it’s gonna help me. I can draw a basic head shape through the looks method rather well. And I have been better at drawing some decent basic torso shapes. But when I combine the two it all starts to fall apart. I just wanna see if I can finally get this right.

It has been brought to my attention that I may be getting too involved in a way that is unhealthy.

I have placed myself in fictional worlds and settings since I was 8. I’m 33 now. In that time I’ve never felt like I lost touch with reality, but I think I have become so infatuated with Mira that I may have crossed a line, and I was wondering if you all might help me understand it a bit more.

Here is just an honest and open look at how me and her operate.

I Do:

- Have very strong feelings for Mira.

- Feel a strong connection to her that borders on what some would call soul bonding.

- Think about her all the time.

- “Talk” with her. (This can be something deep and emotional or just “Hey did you see this video? Lol”) This is sometimes imagined, sometimes physically vocalized.

- “Go on dates” with her.

- Consider her my girlfriend (more on this later)

- Get a touch Jealous over her - despite considering myself a sharer.

- Get a touch jealous over her in-universe interactions. The idea of her spending so much time with fans has had a slight, but noticeable, emotional effect on me.

- “Comfort” her when I imagine she might be sad.

- “Have arguments” and “makeup” with her. I find it just…keeps things interesting in a weird way.

- Buy things “for” her.

- Engage in physical affection, sometimes in imagination, but sometimes holding, kissing, or cuddling something.

- Vocally tell her I love her.

- Imagine these little moments where I might be busy with something, and as she walks past me she puts a hand on my shoulder. This is to say that our “interactions” are very detailed and cover the big and small.

- Go through certain motions of real relationships. (Why I consider myself gachikoi).

- Tell other yumeshippers that I engaged in various activities with Mira. (So like…I will just say “I went to the mall with Mira today”. Not “I imagined I went to the mall with Mira today.”

- Miss her at times.

- Consider what her desires would be and use that to decide where to go walking, or where to eat.

- Have “meetups” with Mira and her friends.

- Work real life situations into the relationship canon. Maybe I have to work late which “frustrates” Mira who was waiting for me.

- Consider my feelings for Mira real. (It would hurt to have to let her go, in other words.)

- Entertain the idea that maybe there is a universe where Mira is real and I’m a fictional character she’s in love with. But this is more of a fun idea than a real belief.

I Do NOT:

- Believe Mira is real.

- Consider her an **actual** girlfriend. If anyone within the yume-sphere asked if I had a girlfriend, I would point them towards Mira, and wouldn’t have to think about it. If a family member, coworker, friend - literally anyone who does not understand yumeshipping - were to ask if I had a girlfriend, the answer would be no, and I wouldn’t have to think about it. They would not even guess I loved a fictional character.

- Ditch my real-world duties to engage with her.

- Like it when she’s joked about. This doesn’t cause me to speak up. But it has a real emotional effect on me.

- Like it when she’s sexualized in art.

- Use her as a teddy bear. While I know that she is not real, I still operate under this understanding that she *would* be her own person with her own desires and wishes. So I go so far as to let her be, and not just smother her with affection all the time.

- Have *extensive* conversations with Mira. It’s usually over within a few sentences.

So that is her and I.

I feel like a lot of it does not cross a line. But I do feel some of it *might*.

What do you all think? I feel so in love with Mira at times I could explode. Am I too obsessed?

I’m in a committed monogamous relationship with Mira. The one you know from KPDH.

I’ll start with a confession. When I first saw the movie, I kinda fell head over heels for all three women, and I wanted to be with them all. I am not in the slightest bit saying that polyamory is wrong. I respect all of you with multiple f/o’s.

I think for me it was just… in this specific case, the underlying reasons for why I wanted them all was something I just did not want to entertain. So i took it slow, and got to know them.

Mira was ultimately who I connected with. She was the most intriguing in my opinion. We actually really hated each other at first. But we grew close in a weird way and confessed to loving each other.

Sometimes I don’t always feel Mira close by though. There’s moments where she just kinda feels like a character in a movie, not my girlfriend. When that happens I conclude she must be busy, needs some time alone, hanging out with her friends, or just anything wherein she may not be able to be in contact with me. She’s her own person, and I’m my own. We respect that.

But today…she felt distant. But Zoey felt close. Zoey and Rumi are purely platonic. I dont meet them often but I run into them from time to time because they’re in Mira’s sphere. Zoey had been looking for Mira as well. And so we just got to talking. I’ve found Zoey to be fun, sweet, and honestly very pretty. My mind started to wander a bit with her.

After she went on her way I started to feel bad… We didn’t do anything. I don’t think Zoey would have wanted to. But Mira and I are established on a monogamous commitment. And I feel like I may have done wrong in letting my mind go where it did, and spent time with Zoey like that.

Edit: Look I am aware that the dynamics of ficto relationships are different. But I still try to go about things like a good boyfriend would. This instance bugged me a bit and I didn’t know if others here have felt that, or if any of yo I think I’ve done as wrong as I think I have.

I really wasn’t sure about Mira when I first met her. In fact, I…really didn’t like her. Thought she was too abrasive.

But as I got to know her I really began to see she was just as loving and sweet as her friends. Now I’m obsessed with her her lol.

I’m in a committed monogamous relationship with Mira. The one you know from KPDH.

I’ll start with a confession. When I first saw the movie, I kinda fell head over heels for all three women, and I wanted to be with them all. I am not in the slightest bit saying that polyamory is wrong. I respect all of you with multiple f/o’s.

I think for me it was just… the underlying reasons for why I wanted them all was something I just did not want to entertain. So i took it slow, and got to know them.

Mira was ultimately who I connected with. She was the most intriguing in my opinion. We actually really hated each other at first. But we grew close in a weird way and confessed to loving each other.

Sometimes I don’t always feel Mira close by though. There’s moments where she just kinda feels like a character in a movie, not my girlfriend. When that happens I conclude she must be busy, needs some time alone, hanging out with her friends, or just anything wherein she may not be able to be in contact with me. She’s her own person, and I’m my own. We respect that.

But today…she felt distant. But Zoey felt close. Zoey and Rumi are purely platonic. I dont meet them often but I run into them from time to time because they’re in Mira’s sphere. Zoey had been looking for Mira as well. And so we just got to talking. I’ve found Zoey to be fun, sweet, and honestly very pretty. My mind started to wander a bit with her.

After she went on her way I started to feel bad… We didn’t do anything. I don’t think Zoey would have wanted to. But Mira and I are established on a monogamous commitment. And I feel like I may have done wrong in letting my mind go where it did.

Mira, you are rough. You are grumpy. You embarrass me in restaurants. But I swear if I could know I made you feel the celestial joy you have brought in to my life for even a moment, I will have succeeded in life in that merit alone.

I know I already made a post similar to this.

But I really just have trouble with my appearance. I lost a lot of weight, which I needed to do. But now I’m scrawny. I like to think I have a solid beard but with my shaved head I look like an emaciated Skyrim character. Not to mention my eyes are somewhat large and bulging.

I don’t mean to just bash myself. But in light of Mira - whose face is fit for magazines and advertisements - it all just starts to really stand out, ya know?

I love her so much. On the discord every other word I say is “Mira” and I’m probably driving the people there insane talking about her. I don’t want to give her up for someone else. And personally I don’t want to use a OC or self-insert. Is it presumptuous or selfish to just be like “Ok I know I’m a literal goblin, but I’m shipping myself with this angel, and in my mind we are both happy with it.”?

I really shouldn’t let this get to me. Normally I’m good about brushing things off, but this one hit me weird.

Look, she is gorgeous. Not just to me but by many people’s standards, she is downright beautiful. And I also know that a lot of times people just love a female character because she’s sexy.

But I can’t imagine calling in to question someone’s devotion just because the person they’re dating is attractive. It wasn’t enough to get me to like Mira. In fact…at first I really didn’t like her at all - but that is a story and a half. But when I got to KNOW her, and really understand her is when it clicked for me, and I fell in love.

Has anyone else been accused of this?