I wanted to ask something that I've been feeling for a while.
I've noticed a pattern in my life and I don't really understand why it keeps repeating. In my school life, I never really dated just small crushes, nothing serious. Even in 11-12th, it was the same.
But after I turned 19 and started meeting new people, things shifted a bit. I've mostly ended up connecting with people emotionally, sometimes quite deeply, but it never really turns into anything stable. A lot of times it feels like I end up being someone people open up to, emotionally rely on, and then they slowly move away without any closure.
It's not like I've been actively looking for it, and for the past year I actually stayed away from all of this. But recently, I met someone in real life, and again within a few days it felt like he shared a lot, opened up completely... and now suddenly he feels distant and off.
And I just keep wondering why does this pattern keep happening with me?
I'm 21, I've never really dated properly, and I don't understand why I often end up in situations where I feel emotionally involved and then left without clarity or closure. It makes me question what I'm doing wrong or I don't know if it's about me, my patterns, or just timing but I genuinely want to understand it now instead of repeating it again and again.
And if I ever do meet the right person how would I even know? What is supposed to feel different when it's actually