Baby boy born at 26 weeks
My baby boy was delivered at 26 weeks 1 day on Thursday, May 7th due to me having preeclampsia and developing HELLP. It’s been very emotional for me since this is my first baby and I’m not sure if I want to go through this again. He was only 1 pound 7.3 ounces and 12.4 inches at birth. I’m constantly terrified and I can’t help but think about all the what ifs. He should still be inside of me and it’s my fault that he’s not. I feel like such a failure. I had three miscarriages pretty early on in my 20s and that was hard for me, but this is so much worse. All I wanted was for him to hit 26 weeks so he had a better chance but I know that things could still go downhill. I’m really trying to look on the positive side of things, it’s just really hard sometimes. I keep getting told that he’s strong and that he’s a fighter but not one doctor anyone has told me what the odds are for him and at this point, I’m too scared to ask. He was on a breathing tube just to give his lungs a break, but he pulled it out last night. Which they don’t know how it happened because apparently that’s not very common and they don’t know exactly how long it had been out. So now he’s on a ventilator and his blood pressure was low so he’s on dopamine. I just wish I could take a glance at the next few months just to know whether or not he’s gonna be okay. They said as long as everything goes okay I could potentially hold him in about a week. Right now that’s all I want to do. I just want to hear from people who also had babies at 26 weeks and hear how things went for them.