Anxiety / Doom
First time caller, long time listener. Thank you to everyone who shares on this forum as I and many others have gotten a lot out of it. I know it can be challenging to discuss for some so I take that into consideration when reading.
My past few sessions have been very difficult psychologically. I've been having a hard time not spiraling and fixating on things I am unhappy with in my life (work, relationships, state of the country / world, etc.). Anyone else struggle with this? I took a hydroxyzine today in my session to help calm my nerves and racing thoughts. Additionally, I am premenstrual and a beloved local friend of ours was killed this weekend... I'll spare the details but it's got me very upset and I can't stop thinking about them and what may have happened (waiting on answers). I recognize these things may affect my experience. I’m about 4 weeks in a twice a week (missed last Friday's session so just once last week). I have experienced some calm / clarity / relaxation but overall I find this treatment to be uncomfortable and not very enjoyable. I bring things to comfort myself with and have taken a lot of tips from this forum, and understand there are many potential experiences that can happen in sessions. A wide range.
Anyway... anyone else experience anxiety, doom spiraling, fixating on problems / aspects of your life you're unhappy with? It's been so hard the past two sessions. I’m going to hang in there but damn. It's been rough. Is this normal / expected? How do you cope other than just hang on until the ride is over?
Thanks for reading, and thanks in advance for any replies and support. Wishing you all success and happiness in your healing journey.
*editing to clean up my typos - this was shortly after a session and I was whirly