I am sitting in my room staring at a blank wall because everything feels fake now. Three days ago I was just a normal guy with a dream but now I have Stage 3 and a bunch of doctors talking over my head like I am some kind of science experiment. It started with a stupid pain in my hip and I thought I pulled a muscle but I did not it is a tumor. The worst part is not even the diagnosis it is my parents because they are trying to be positive and it is making me want to just leave the room. My mom is crying in the kitchen thinking I cannot hear her and my dad just stares at me like I am already gone but I am still right here. I see my friends complaining on social media about their jobs or college and I just want to tell them to stop because they have no idea how lucky they are to have normal problems. I am 18 and I am literally researching if I should freeze my sperm because the treatment is going to affect everything and I have not even had a real life yet. All I ever wanted was to be a professional gamer and I was planning to save every cent to finally buy my first real setup and start competing but now my hands shake too much and I do not even have the equipment I worked so hard to get. It feels like everything I wanted is being ripped away before I even got the chance to start. I do not want pity or any generic comments about being brave. I just needed to vent because in the end I just wanted to fulfill my dreams of actually making it in the gaming world while I still can.
Edit: Thank you so much for the 25k views and all the support. Since many of you asked how to help, I am being honest: my parents are struggling with the bills and we cannot afford the sperm preservation costs and medical equipment right now. I really do not want to be a financial burden to them while I am fighting this. If you are able to help or know any organizations that assist with these specific costs, please DM me. I just want to focus on getting better and back to my dreams without worrying about the money.