Anyone else who is sober from meth notice their sexual life get worse?
I'm 1 year sober, this was my 1st relapse after getting sober once before for 9 years. I was going through a lot and really relapsed hard, spent about a year and a half in active, plus a lot if very hard life situations during and using to cope with. I notice I my sex life, sexual pleasure, symptoms, etc are horrible, to the point I even went completely abstinent and have been over a month as i've felt maybe it will help me heal cause nothing feels good sexually anywhere, sex feels like a chore, the pleasure is never the same, yet honestly many of the sexual encounters and places I got mixed up in through the drugs were also traumatizing, abusive, etc and also created very negative associations which drugs then chemically reinforcing things that stayed long after getting sober, like sex not being wound up with fear emotionally, unsafety, danger, etc
I know people will be like what the hell is this guy talking about he I nuts but anyone else feel meth ruined their sex life, sires getting crossed psychologically, etc from it even sober? Like sex feels wrong or off without it, while paradoxically. Also feeling that the only way to enjoy sex is with it, but you ain't trying to relapse and it would only get worse.
Everything that meth gave me while on it is almost being "repayed" while sober in an inverted fassion: no sex drive at all, used to last SO long now not, pleasure felt more intense but you had greater self control, sober less self control, but too sensitive.
does this ever get better and return to normal?