u/Flimsy-Ordinary-353

Hey everybody, yesterday i've experienced something quite strange and somewhat disturbing. I was smoking weed (just a little, 1 joint of somewhat 0.2 grams max.) I Don't really smoke on a high basis, once a week or even less. When I smoke with people, mostly 1 on 1, good friends I trust, I become super sensitive and hyper-aware. I'm a sensitive, high-energy person, but mostly calm. Just trying to stay in tune with my body and aware of my thoughts.

Yesterday I became aware the friend I was with, was acting quite tense, even pleasing me alot, which is not a big deal. But he lost an important person, his father a while back, so he's slightly suicidal, and even finds it hard to let go of his past, his younger self in trauma.

I said myself, because i'm aware, when I'm speaking about life and what's going on for me is that it's all in my own perspective right. Always for me, i'm not trying to tell you the truth about you, just figuring out mine and speaking that out load.

At the end he told me I shouldn't do it (make an end to life), he's projecting what he's seeing in me, but it's his own feeling. I whould never get to that point right now. It's not going on for me, not at all.

All on all, I was tripping quite much this evening, zoning away in my thoughts. It felt like inbalance. I might not have felt real comfortable with myself, I've read another post, It might be someone who is inbalancing me. I sensed a pretty dark thought, which comprehenced with a weird twitch on his face. You know, strange, but whatever. I don't need to know. (I do know, but the real issue is not the thing he does, but the feel and truth he supresses).

But if that's the case, why did we do reach a kind of moment of truth? Atleast from my perspective? I gave him a strong for real hug, telling him it's okay, he should find something from which he can let things out.

I told from my own perspective I need someone to talk to, for real, being sober almost all the time, makes me just intune of myself, so that's a real need for me. A proffesional person, therapist or a life-coach. Just saying that for me right, but that might give him a hint of what he might need.

I was tripping completely, i'm quiting weed and picking up the things that really bring me joy, fullfillment. Taking it step by step and doing my own good.

Just Smashing Pumpkins Disarm keeps coming up.

Anyone whould like to share their thoughts on it? Thank you and Love you all peace

Hey everybody, yesterday i've experienced something quite strange and somewhat disturbing. I was smoking weed (just a little, 1 joint of somewhat 0.2 grams max.) I Don't really smoke on a high basis, once a week or even less. When I smoke with people, mostly 1 on 1, good friends I trust, I become super sensitive and hyper-aware. I'm a sensitive, high-energy person, but mostly calm. Just trying to stay in tune with my body and aware of my thoughts.

Yesterday I became aware the friend I was with, was acting quite tense, even pleasing me alot, which is not a big deal. But he lost an important person, his father a while back, so he's slightly suicidal, and even finds it hard to let go of his past, his younger self in trauma.

I said myself, because i'm aware, when I'm speaking about life and what's going on for me is that it's all in my own perspective right. Always for me, i'm not trying to tell you the truth about you, just figuring out mine and speaking that out load.

At the end he told me I shouldn't do it (make an end to life), he's projecting what he's seeing in me, but it's his own feeling. I whould never get to that point right now. It's not going on for me, not at all.
All on all, I was tripping quite much this evening, zoning away in my thoughts. It felt like inbalance. I might not have felt real comfortable with myself, I've read another post, It might be someone who is inbalancing me. I sensed a pretty dark thought, which comprehenced with a weird twitch on his face. You know, strange, but whatever. I don't need to know. (I do know, but the real issue is not the thing he does, but the feel and truth he supresses).

But if that's the case, why did we do reach a kind of moment of truth? Atleast from my perspective? I gave him a strong for real hug, telling him it's okay, he should find something from which he can let things out.

I told from my own perspective I need someone to talk to, for real, being sober almost all the time, makes me just intune of myself, so that's a real need for me. A proffesional person, therapist or a life-coach. Just saying that for me right, but that might give him a hint of what he might need.

I was tripping completely, i'm quiting weed and picking up the things that really bring me joy, fullfillment. Taking it step by step and doing my own good.
Just Smashing Pumpkins Disarm keeps coming up.

Anyone whould like to share their thoughts on it? Thank you and Love you all peace