u/Flat_Transition_3775

Took him to a vet and there was nothing they could do because his kidneys was shutting down. I feel so empty & numb. I’m going to miss Midnight so much since I had him for 15 years. I found him under my porch when I was 13, he was a stray and we had this instant bond & connection. He was so clingy and would stay on my lap for as long as possible, he would give me kisses, hugs and so much love. He would talk to me everyday and when he was a stray he would follow me all the way to the bus stop. He will always be my baby & I will miss him so much.

I gave Midnight fluids yesterday & he ate small meals in the morning & night. But he hasn’t cuddled with me at all last night which is odd because he always wants cuddles & had been cuddling with me since Friday when his health decline. He has been in his carrier since last night when I woke up in the middle of the night to check on him. This morning he hasn’t left the carrier & I put it on the bed hoping he will come out and cuddle with me. I had to skip school today because I’m worried about him & have to monitor him. If he doesn’t feel better by tomorrow, then I think it’s 100% time to put him out of his misery.

I told myself if he suddenly stops cuddling with me, then it is time to let him go because it shows that he is in so much pain that even I can’t comfort him to help him etc.

I’m worried for Midnight, I thought he would be fine but yesterday he suddenly stopped eating his food. He is never picky with food & always meows before he eats food but he doesn’t even talk anymore. I tried to give him his regular food thinking maybe he is bored of kidney food, he doesn’t eat it. Tried dry food, he only took a few nibble and that’s it. Tried chicken & tuna and he would nibble and be done with it. He can eat a half tube of churu but that’s it. He mostly just drinks water and sleep under the blankets between my legs. He doesn’t purr, he doesn’t talk to me, he barely follows me anymore and he doesn’t even give me kisses.

I took him to the vet today and his blood results shows that it’s progressing but the vet gave him fluids and nausea meds. So far he only had a bit of Tuna afterwards but that’s it. He went pee at least, but I’m worried for him. What if he continues to not eat? What if he continues to get worse? Should I slowly plan the end for him? He is my baby & best friend and it’s almost midnight and I keep overthinking about his health and when will it be time to end his suffering or if he improves? I don’t want to lose him right now, I thought I would have at least 6 months or more.

Originally I had a different idea with the bunny but I screwed up and tried my best to fix it & hide it x.x

I just joined this group since I noticed my cat was losing weight and bony when I pet him, so I took him to the vet once my semester was finished. The vet told me he has kidney decline and reassure me that since Midnight is 15 years old, it’s common for older cats to have this problem. He said I did a good thing to notice it early and took him in and that he could get better and live a longer life. His diet is all kidney food diet from the vet which I ordered 2 flavours of 24 cans of wet food and just waiting for it to be delivered. So I only have his dry food for now & his supplements. I just hope he improves within 6 months since he would need another check up to see if he improves or gets worsen. I do worry about him and have been spending more time with him since I have vacation time before I start my Spring semester next week.