My first love
Honestly I'm not sure if I can call this unrequited love but we dated when we were in the 2nd year of high school, he was my first love and everything. We had a crazy relationship we were so in love but it became rough and we ended it by the end of that year. Nearing the end of our school life, he texted me saying he wanted to apologise for everything he did so we met up. I thought I'd see him and it would be fine because I believed I had moved on from him but the moment I saw him again and spoke to him everything came back to me in a flash. And the same happened to him because he kept telling me if we didn't make those mistakes we'd still be together we would have been so perfect. We kept meeting almost everyday and I started to feel smth for him again. When I told him about this he said I felt the same way but didn't want to do anything as we are too complicated. But he kept meeting me, telling me all those sweet things. This went on for months. Then after a while we both stop talking to each other, a month went by and I found out he was in a situationship wirh someone else and I was hurt so I called him to ask about it. He told me everything saying the girl told him she loves him but he said he doesn't think he'll ever feel that for her and he said I stopped talking to you out of respect to her. And I said I did the same but I couldn't keep talking to this other guy (I have been talking to the guy for 2 weeks now) because I am unsure if I've completely moved on from him. He told me we should meet tonight soo I called him and when I called I heard a girls voice at first I then asked him if he was still coming to see me. He said his house didn't have electricity and his phone was about to die I told him he could charge it at my place I have a cable. Said I'll lyk let the electricity come back and imma charge my phone before I come. I honestly don't know why I'm writing here, ik it's not unrequited but it is in some sick way because I want him but he doesn't want me with the same intensity and I'm not sure what to do or who to tell. I can't keep this inside me anymore