Recovery guilt
I am a few weeks into recovery, and while I have been seeing some major improvements overall (no period yet, obviously), I also feel the guilt creeping up on me from time to time. Sometimes I feel soooo hungry all the time, and I’m so scared of overeating because I feel like I’m gaining weight so fast (even though most of it is probably water weight because it keeps fluctuating, and I think I’m the only one noticing these changes because I am constantly body-checking). And have been eating foods I would normal never allow myself and it feels so wrong.
I am trying to read other people’s journeys and motivate myself to keep going and remind myself that my body weight/fat will regulate and redistribute itself. But what if I keep gaining and I’m just always hungry? I honestly love my body more now, but it feels so wrong and counterintuitive to keep going.