Hey everyone,
I’m currently hitting a wall with extreme hunger, and honestly, it’s terrifying. I knew this was a possibility in recovery, but experiencing it is a different beast. It feels like no matter how much I eat, my brain is screaming for more. I‘m usually not hungry but when i do start eating (forced recovery) i get hungrier and hungrier with each bite until the hunger gets unstoppable. It’s not even just physical stomach hunger; it’s this constant, obsessive mental urge to keep going.
When the hunger kicks in, it’s like a switch flips and I lose all control. It is agonizing. In those moments, I feel like I could honestly eat a shoe sole if it was put in front of me—that’s how primal and desperate the urge is.
The hardest part is the absolute terror of healthy fats and high calorie foods. I’ve spent so long avoiding them, but now that I’m in this "bottomless pit" phase, my body is reaching for exactly those fear foods. Watching myself lose control and eat the things I’ve spent months or years banning is soul-crushing. The guilt afterward is paralyzing, and the urge to restrict again just to feel "safe" is so strong.
For those of you who have been through this:
• How do you manage the panic? Every time I eat "more" than my old rules allowed, I feel a massive wave of guilt and the urge to restrict again the next day. (Therefore already relapsed a few times)
• What are your "satiating" go-tos? Are there specific types of meals that helped quiet the "mental noise" for you?
• Does it actually end? I need some reassurance that this bottomless pit feeling eventually levels out once the body trusts it's not in a famine anymore.
I’m really trying to stay on track and not lapse back into restriction just to make the hunger stop, but it’s hard when your appetite feels like a runaway train.
Any advice or "it gets better" stories would be hugely appreciated. Thank you.