Hello, I'm new here. I'm around 8 to 9 years now walking with Jesus.
I'm just wondering and kind of sad whenever I was reminded of how passionate musically inclined when I was a baby Christian (pre-pandemic to pandemic days).
I was so passionate in singing and playing instrument. When I say passionate I mean it that every single day I would sing songs and play instrument.
But then that changed when a major transition came to my life, where I cry every night for no reason at all and got no motivation to live anymore. But I passed through that darkest and coldest valley of my life by God's grace.
But after that, I just lose interest in singing and playing instrument. Whenever I try to play worship songs it's not as beautiful as before. I lost the emotions and connection when I sing, it makes me sad. Maybe because I associate them with my "immature version" of myself.
On the other hand, I understand that God is preparing me to another path—He's calling me to be in a creative production. But comparing my passion and perseverance to when I was a baby Christian, I am not as persevered (in terms of growing my skills in using softwares etc) as I was before.
I also want to consider the fact that I was so driven by my emotions back then, compare to the version of myself right now. Cause right now I have to consider so many things. I don't know if you get my point. But I just want to know your insights about it.
Also, thank you so much in advance, I really appreciate your insights. 🥹