I feel like I hit rock bottom today
I have been struggling with weight and body image as long as I can remember, even as a kid. It got worse during the pandemic as everything closed including gyms. And it never got better since then.
Today I faced the music, tried all if my shorts and donated all that did not fit. I stepped on a scale. I calculated my calorie budget and I feel like crying. I don't think I eat that bad, although definitely clean all the time. My main struggle is portion sizes. Eating the right amount leaves me hungry and unsatisfied, even if there is enough protein and fibre. I exercise regularly at least 4 times a week. It only makes me feel even hungrier. I don't drink, I don't do sugary beverages, no candy, no fatty snacks, no easy wins to get me started.
The reality of weightloss is me calculating everything, struggling every day, forever. I feel so defeated right now.