Today I had to put my sweet girl Evie to sleep. She was only 4. Over the past week, she suddenly stopped eating, and we noticed she had lost a bit of weight and she was shedding quite more than usual. We took her to the vet yesterday, and her all of her blood levels were critically low. We rushed her to the vet hospital and they kept her overnight, did a blood transfusion which raised her level from 8.6% out of 40-45 to 15% but unfortunately a few hours later, her blood levels dropped again to the same and the blood test they took after the blood transfusion showed new white blood cells that indicated cancer. She was given a very grim prognosis. I ultimately decided the best thing I could do for her was put her to rest and take away her pain. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I held her the whole time, and when she drifted off to sleep into my chest, all I could do was cry over and over while holding her and telling her I loved her. I’ll never forget looking at her face after he told us she was gone. I’m just so heartbroken and in shock. I’ll never get that image of her face out of my head. A week ago she was fine, her usual self. I’ll never understand. He told us she likely always had it, and it was dorment until now. It was in her bone marrow. Cancer is so ugly and cruel. She was our most playful active cat, always running around and always around us. I am so lost knowing I’ll never see her again when all I did was see her. I have 5 other cats that I am now extremely paranoid about losing as well (the doctor told us not to worry as she likely wasn’t contagious) but i’m still going crazy worried i’ll lose them too. They are all very healthy. I guess I’m just so in shock. What can I do to not go crazy? This is so gut wrenching.
This is also my first reddit post so I apologize if it’s a mess. I’m just so at loss and need guidance.