u/FitSherbet24

to start off I don’t read books/news. my compos always score better than my comprehensions for both English and mother tongue. recent years I realise while it’s easy to put in effort and score well for other subjects, it’s my languages that idk how to practice/revise and I always score badly. for some reason my English scored worse than my Chinese, even though English is the language I speak the most. like…how?? I speak English everyday and Im still unable to understand the comprehension? there was one question asking about someone’s emotional state and I didnt even know what that meant, I thought it was about the emotional level of the person and I wrote “very emotional”. well ofc I got it wrong lah… I just dont get how I just suck at the language that I speak more. I want l1r5 6 for o levels, but my English (c6) alone can fulfil that goal 💀💀 like pls idk what to do anymore my compo always a1 but my compre is so bad…. my English teacher said it was considered an easy paper and i literally borderline pass….

seniors who do well for English how do yall study for it? do yall just practice and practice tys? i feel like it depends on the compre passage to be able to do well….

so like I have this subject which I usually get b4 for. this time I got a1, but it was a low a1, and my body smh didn’t feel happy that I lose 8 marks over stupid mistakes…. idk what my expectations are cuz before my exam I was thinking I wanted to at least improve. but now even tho I improved by a lot (it was my first a1), I still feel a bit disappointed…

is it normal to not be able to understand economics at sec 4? everyone around me seems to know so much and can yap a lot about economy. I don’t even understand economics, even if I take geog and social studies. while everyone chilled out for social studies (it was abt economics), I spent 2 days tryna understand that shit cuz if I can’t understand I can’t remember. like all I know is thst it’s related to money. trade or sth. Idk man. I think in jc therell be a subject called economics right? even the teachers say economics is the easiest subject to pick, but i gen think it’s the hardest to do…. and then we had to choose a talk we wanted to attend in regards to our future career and idk what career I wanna have so I just looked at the options and 80% of the options were related to money and accounting and business and whatever and I gen hate careers like that cuz it seems related to economics and money. am I genuinely cooked for my own future if i suck at understanding economics?

maybes it’s cuz I don’t read the news that much and I’m not that exposed cuz the only economic related news i know is trump and tariffs or sth.

[edited] in primary school, I pretended to be an extroverted person for 2-3 years because i was an introvert and i knew i couldn’t make friends like this so i did this to be friends with everyone. I kind of succeeded but the mental stress was great. in sec 1 i continued this extrovert facade but then i started to realise that this extrovert facade may annoy people because of how i view extroverted people and how i act accordingly to that view. in sec 2 i stopped acting extroverted but by then i lost my sense of self and i didnt even know my own personality or what i liked. I didn’t know my own hobbies. I finally had a friend group but because i stopped acting outgoing i couldn’t talk about anything with my group because i dont actually talk. in sec 3 cuz different class the friend group broke and i was alone. of course id have acquaintances but even if they did something i didn’t like ill still stay silent cuz i hope to not make enemies and be friends with everyone. but regardless i was still alone.

and now im sec 4. it’s the time where we have to think about our careers and the courses we want to take. but i dont even know what i like and what career i wants to have….. i can’t ask anyone cuz i dont even have a lot of friends too….

is this what pretending does to people?

do yall have any experiences?

[yeah this is my life experience 😭]

[edited]

hi, sec 4 student here. today I attended a talk abt jc and poly and I wanna go jc so ofc I pay more attention to that. apparently cuz of covid many learning stuff are online now and u have to basically self study online?? so what’s jc for… i feel like I learn worse online than hearing the cher teach… is jc actually like this? I wanna go rjc but is it really all just online self study? sigh…