u/Fit-Yogurtcloset7074

It's been over two years since we first met, and a year since we graduated. Was it a friendship, a situationship, or a relationship? Honestly, I still don't know what we were. But what I do know is whenever she was around, the world just stopped for me. I've tried cutting contact more times than I can count, and every single time l've failed. Do I want to go back to her? Yes, without a second thought. But does she want me? Sometimes it feels like a loud yes. Other times it feels like she's just confused. And maybe, it's just a no.
We're on different career paths, living in different cities and we follow different beliefs but here I'm willing to compromise, because something tells me l'll never meet anyone like her again.
It's honestly been a mental battle I can't seem to win. I don't know if anyone here can relate, but l'd love to hear your thoughts