I don’t want to be a witness anymore
I (17f) don’t want to be a witness, I’m not baptized but I have known since I was 8 that this life wasn’t for me. My dad isn’t a witness and never was and will be quite frankly he thinks it dumb. My mom has always been one and is a devoted follower. My parents are still together and they got married with my mom being an active witness.
I have always kind of knew I didn’t want to live my life this way and that I wanted to be out of this whole ordeal. Since I was 8 I have wanted to be out!! I wanted to live a normal life with that friends I wanted and that life I always wanted to live. I think my dad will take my side on me not wanting to be a witness anymore but I know it would put some division on our family. it’s my mom and sister I’m worried about I love them a lot and don’t want to lose them or have some sort of resentment towards me and my decision . There has been ton of people around me and my age that have left and it has always been messy and a ton of gossip involved and I don’t want that, I want to go my own way. And have normal life I want to find a way to be as peaceful as possible I don’t want to loose everyone in my life over this decision I have waited till I have a job and a car just in case things go side ways.
I want to tell her by the end of this month. But I really want to do this in the most peaceful way possible, I have big plans for my life and they do involve my mom. I really do think coming at this conversation in a respectful and peaceful manner will help her respect my decision. A few things I’m conflicted about is how do I go about having a normal life even after telling my mom? I want to be able to hang out with my friends. Maybe even get a boyfriend…. A worldly boyfriend. How do I do that? My mom will still try and make me live by her morals ( by her morals I mean Jehovah’s). I think she does have an idea that I’m falling away, I have put way less effort into hiding it so it won’t be a big shock.
would love to hear about other people experiences and the best way to go about things and any advice helps.