I do have a history or GAD. I had been on Lexapro since around 2020 and when I got pregnant with my son in ‘23-‘24 I stayed on my 10mg dose throughout the pregnancy and up to a year postpartum. Mentally I felt really good! I decided to taper down off Lexapro slowly. I went from 10mg to 3.75mg in about a year and was doing great. Then in February my husband and I had an early loss at 5 weeks. When I found out I was pregnant, I lowered my dose to 2.5mg. And after the loss, although sad about it, I was still doing good anxiety-wise until about 3-4 weeks post decrease. Then, late March, I got hit with the worst anxiety I’ve had in years. Dealt with it myself for a few weeks until I had to schedule an appointment with my PCP where i was unsurprisingly told to start back at 5mg and surprisingly told I was pregnant again!
Been on the 5mg for about 3 weeks now and although I’m doing better, I’m still having highs and lows, feeling very unmotivated, overwhelmed by every day tasks, my toddler, cooking/cleaning…everything. I see my NP tomorrow and I’m sure she’ll want to up my dosage, which is okay. I just feel like such a failure. I wanted to come off Lexapro because I had been doing so well on tapering for over a year just to take like 5 million steps back.
I figure this is medication related but also possibly hormonal? I understand this situation is kind of specific but if anyone has any thoughts or even have been through pregnancies with different levels of anxiety before, it would be nice to know I’m not alone.