I am so sad and depressed all of the time. I feel like my relationship with my husband is completely going down the drain. He is so critical and judgemental of me and everyone else. It's so exhausting. Even just driving down the street to the grocery store he is guaranteed to make comments about my driving and probably at least 2 other people.
I've talked to him about this and he either A) takes it very well, promises to change, and everything goes back to how it was a week ago or B) gets mad and says i'm being dramatic, and it usually escalates to him telling me how awful and mean i am because i tend to lash out after a while.
Lately i've been having dreams about people flirting with me. Each dream is a continuation of a previous one so it's like a story or a fake life i get to live in. We never do anything sexual in the dreams, jus a couple guys that ask me questions about myself and care about me. I've found myself waking up from them and wishing i could sleep a few more minutes so i can stay happy.
I don't know what to do anymore. I know my husband loves me. he's struggles mentally very badly and so do I and we have had a difficult first year of having a baby. i just feel so guilty and i don't even know what to do anymore. idk