I feel like I can't be upset over it
My parents (38 f) and (42 m) have been together for 20 years and recently decided to divorce in the beginning of October 2025. They would have officially been divorced this past april, but complications with the selling of our house has left them still legally married as of right now.
Throughout their marriage, they fought often and often made me (16 f) and my brother (18 m) the center of their arguments. My father was abusive to her physically and mentally, and my mom would often run to my room so he wouldn't do anything to her. The image of that will always remain in my head. Following the transition of high school and the drama that comes with it, while the divorce was since coming, it still felt like a massive stab to the back.
For context my parents had been "roommates" for several years, with both staying simply for the sake of us their children. As ive got older, i've realized the mental impact growing up in this environment has caused me, and while never diagnosed (my parents don't really believe in therapy) I have reason to believe i have depression and severe detachment issues.
My mom met her boyfriend (60-something m) later October, and they have been together since. My dad also has met someone (42 f) and they seem happier. I try not to get into their relationships, but seeing my parents with other people has truly impacted me. My dad asked me to not meet my
moms boyfriend until after the divorce was finalized but my mom guilt tripped me into it anyway. I carry the guilt of lying to my dad now because of it.
Throughout all of this i've become detached from the world around me, and both have seen a strain in our relationships. I no longer see my
mom as a best friend and i don't talk to my dad often. I just miss my house and the home i once had. Moving from my childhood home for 16 years and having to play the part of a happy daughter is exhausting. I can't do it anymore. My mom blames me for everything, for having to keep my dog and gets mad at me for not wanting to talk to her. I tell her that i don't want to talk to her or anyone and she finds a way to mention my dad. When im with my dad he just makes fun of my mom and I lost interest in defending her when she neglects my mental health.
I'm seriously done with both of them and just want to be emancipated or something.