I’m extremely miserable all the time and it’s my own fault
I’m one of the most pathetic wastes of space and life. I have always had lows but tried to at least dig myself out of the dirt but ever since my dad passed away in 2023, I’m just a miserable pos. It’s my 30th bday and I’m at home with my dog laying here crying all because I’m scared of aging and haven’t accomplished anything worthwhile in my life and despite being “grown”, I want my dad.. Mom died from cancer when I was 9, so he was my main parent. I’m so mentally fucked that I can’t even hold down a job so my husband tries to support us while I lie here letting us barely scrape by. Happy birthday to me… I’m also too chicken to kms even though I think about it often.. my older brother committed in 2020 and I can’t leave my other older brother like that.. sorry I just needed to let this out, even if this isn’t the best place to do so. I just needed to let someone know, even if they don’t care.. thank you..